Monday, September 15, 2008 @5:25 AM
eh fucker
you damn basket leh..
i fucking like you for one year +++ yet you dont seem to fucking notice me
like what the fuck?! can't you just tell me that you dont like me straight to me and not give me high hopes and in the end you crash me down. you know how that bloody fucking hurts?! go dammit. i have no bloody idea why i am soo infatuated to you. why?!@# god dammit why!?!? it's so fucking retarded can. i acted so foolishly retarded in front of you.. around you. and end up you like another girl. okaye so she's prettier than me. skinnier than me. well congrats. but why can't you just let me know?! omg. you're such a bastard. you're.. no good man. i hate you. the way you treat me. you're like spinning me round and round getting me high.. then low on some days. why?! what the fuck did i do to you?! URGHH once i knew about it today.. i felt like crying yet also bursting into laughter at times. but in the end.. is it worth it? i thought about it today. why am i so into you. what did you do to get me sooo into you.. then i realise.. i really didn't know. it was just a feeling in me. it was just... something. i thought.. haiix. it's sad.. a year of hard work. yea. it paid off. the pain? not exactly. it's not exactly pain.. just.. just.. rather shocked. taken aback? hmm.. bewildered. can't explain why the fuck you look at me for. why?! can you fucking TELL ME WHY?!?!?! bloody fuck. i can't stand you no more. you're like ALWAYS there when i want to forget you. you know how bloody hard it is to let go a 1 year+ crush?! it was a one sided thing all along i guess.. that sucks. that really sucks... although i know you will never return the feelings. but sometimes whenever you look at me or whatever shit fuck nonsense you do to make my heart skip a beat, my palms sweaty, it gave me a glimpse of hope? i dunno. just felt... i was somehow.. not too far away from you.. but hey. what can i say. you broke my heart in the end. in a very very harsh and pathetic way. painful. very painful. i try and try to look nonchalant. but.. sorry. i can't hold back the feelings. yea. the news is sad. i try to thank the memories. the way you made me laugh. the way you made me go high, the way you make my day. it's rather unforgettable. so well thanks.
thanks for breaking my heart. thanks for being alive. thanks for being.. you.
because.. i.... hate you.I WILL FUCKING HELL FORGET YOU BY TOMORROW
